Last minute shoot with some of the club at the summit of mt wachusett #subaru #centralmasubarus #legacygt #wrx #subarutechnicainternational
let me set some shit straight.
im going to apologize in advance for the big post with no post break because i want people to see this. people can run their shit all they want and view me however theyd like but unless youre with me everyday you have no idea who the fuck i am or how i really treat the people that truely do unconditionally care about me. im just happy i didnt end up a sad fake lying fat alcoholic bitch that will say and do anything to feel just a little bit of acceptance, someone that would stab even their best of friends in the back lie and cheat with someone i trusted just to feel one drop of self worth, and for the record you cant replace people with animals and objects you insecure dolt. no matter how hard anyone tries you can never and will never be genuinely confident and happy with life until you learn how to be genuinely confident and happy with yourself. fuck the rumors you want to know who i am then ask, and im not going to lie it feels amazing to be happier now than you could have ever dreamed of making me you weak disgusting person. i always should have known better, abandoning me when i was at rock bottom the way you did hurt me more than anyone in my life ever has but it paid off in a way i never imagined. you used me to get exactly what you wanted and you lied right from day one you NEVER cared about me not for one single fucking minute you cried to everyone and shifted the blame on me but i fought tooth and nail to make both your mistakes and mine right again and you simply just turned your back and walked away and left me there all alone to fight all my demons by myself simply proving that you had not a drop of love or compassion for me in you at all. however i really must say THANK YOU, thank you so much, if it wasnt for you i never ever would have found someone that does everything you never could do someone that is everyone that you could NEVER be no matter how hard you tried because you didnt appreciate shit you didnt know what the meaning of pain or struggle was your life is a cake walk and appreciation was all i wanted and you couldnt even give me that. im happy now. a lot happier than i ever was before and i dont regret one single day i dont regret one single argument fight nothing i regret nothing because if i didnt struggle and make it through the last 2 years i never ever would have found the one thing that actually does compliment me and make me happy someone that doesnt even hesitate to help me through anything someone that DOES NOT and would NEVER judge me or who i am rather they accept me and love me unconditionally and do whatever they need to do to help me out and i do the same in return which is literally the one thing you could never do because your own disgusting insecurities fucked EVERYTHING up no matter how hard i tried to make you feel amazing beautiful and confident and no matter how much i did for you it was never enough nobody else in your life ever would have shown you the world the way i did, but thats all done now and now i have people that are everything youre not in the most amazing ways possible. to the people who have walked away fuck you and good riddance im glad youre gone after all i have done for you, you were all nothing but fake friends that used me for years and that includes the one girl that was supposed to be there forever, and to all the people who never walked away the people that picked me up when i was at my lowest i thank you and owe you more than i can ever repay, and to the person that really does genuinely care about me and every single one of my flaws and doesnt judge me for them i truely do unconditionally love you and as long as you continue to the be person ive experienced the last 3 months my feelings toward you will never change. perfection is an understatement. now everyone can shut the fuck up at age 24 all the drama and bullshit is completely beyond me if you dont like me stay the fuck out of my life and stay the fuck away from everyone i love NOT a difficult fucking concept. /endrant
It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that’s going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but it’s scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go.
3 days later still clean as hell hit up @premiumblends and get a real cut #selfienation #premiumblends #greaserstatus
I’m such a Shitty person I’m super scummy fucked up blah blah but whenever someone needs something or I’m doing something that benefits someone else it’s a different story. In other words fuck everyone’s immature high school bullshit everyone seems to have problem but nobody ever says a word to my face or off of anon.
